Gonna say some personal shit right now...Feel free to read or ignore but I wanted to share... For the past few months I have been in a really dark place. I've been pretty depressed but I've been kind of keeping it tucked away for a while. When I was with people I could forget about it but when I was alone it all kind of smothered me. Last week I was sitting down alone thinking and the first time in my life I thought "maybe I should end it?" I broke down after that. Started crying...I felt like two things were fighting eachother in my brain if that makes any sense. I knew I could never do that to myself or my family/friends but just having that thought tore me apart. During these months I've also felt very worthless. I started seeing myself through different eyes and I wanted to change so much about myself. I hated myself. This was the toughest few months in my life.
I am not sure why this hit me out of nowhere, stress maybe. But today, I finally feel like myself again. It's one of the greatest feelings in the world to find who you are again. This was hopefully a breakthrough moment for me. I can see myself and love myself for who I am again. Its good to smile and feel happy even when I am alone again.
The moral of the story is don't take your happiness for granted. Sometimes shit hits you out of nowhere. All of us are worth something. Don't ever give up on yourself. I promise it gets better.